Okay, weird title right? Wrong.
Something I've always loved is science, so if you don't want to read anything science-related, I suggest you just don't read this blog instead of boring yourself.
Now, at school, Chemistry was my favourite science, Physics was the one I hated, and Biology was the one I scored highest in. I was good enough at all of them, but there was something in Biology that just clicked. It was interesting, a little gruesome at times, and I always had something to add, which was never really something I did at school. Add things, I mean. I was always so quiet, still am in some ways. My friends at college still don't see the crazy 'home' side of me, mainly because I'm scared they'll think me a 'freak' or something, not they don't already. They also don't see the 'smart' side of me, because I know a lot about a little, and the subjects I've always thrown myself into don't ever come up. No one wants to know how a jaguar kills it's prey (by piercing the preys skull with it's teeth) or that one of the guys that invented the blue stuff that they take impression with at the dentist was my great uncle. It's not relevant, and I don't care if people don't see those sides to me that much, but I do worry that the sides of me they do see, portray me as boring. I just don't know how to release the idiot side of me that is pretty much skitz and filled with various characters that I don't even know i'm doing half the time. I'm so awkward with people that sometimes I freak out and don't know what to say, so I something stupid by accident. I hate this side of me sometimes, but it's a side of me nonetheless.
Anyway, lets get back to what I was going to talk about. Darwin's theory.
I think that Darwin's theory of Evolution is absolutely genius. Things evolving from rocks and bugs to reptiles and mammals to intelligent beings that eventually learn to talk, read, write and converse? It couldn't be any cooler, so why are people so quick to shun it?
'People didn't evolve from rocks, don't be silly.' Okay, so maybe we didn't evolve from rocks, maybe we evolved from the bacteria that was living on rocks at the time. Maybe that bacteria found some food and it hulked out into a bug, and that bug hulked out into something else and so on. Who's to say that isn't possible? I'm certainly not going to rule it out.
The fact is, we'll never know where we came from or why we exist. We'll never know what happens next, and we'll never know why it is that we die, but we do have so many brilliant and interesting theories to indulge ourselves in, so why not? Why not believe something that's only a tiny bit possible, why not believe that there are parallel universes, other galaxies and universes? Why not.
This has all just been playing on my mind a bit, how people are so closed, so, if you fancy, let me know what you believe about that universe and why we're here, I'm genuinely interested to know.
Thanks,
Alie, :) x
Ramblings, rants and random acts of music mumblings.
Sunday 21 October 2012
Thursday 11 October 2012
Deep Blog.
I'm going to be totally honest here, but please understand, this isn't a blog to say "feel sorry for me", "pity me" or "my life's shit" because it's not, however, it's about time I start being truthful. I'm not asking you to read this if feelings and shit make you feel uncomfortable. I'm not asking you to read this at all. I'm posting this here, purely so that I can look back on this and re-evaluate in the future.
Things aren't easy. They never are, but when a person makes it their full out goal to make your or your family or your friends lives a living hell, you have to question humanity just a little bit. People are evil, they always have and always will be, but when you finally experience that for yourself, you really realise the true extent of that, and it's not an easy thing to realise.
Recently, everything has been piling up, and in all honesty, I can't make sense of any of it now. Before, I thought holding things in would be a good idea. 'Don't bother anyone with it all' I told myself, and now I'm getting flack from everywhere. People asking me why I never said about it, people wondering why I went on pretending everything was fine. The truth is, I didn't want to bother anyone. People have way bigger problems, and they still do, so I think i'll just go on in this blog, get it out, and move on as much as is possible, this way, no one has to be burdened with it, except future me.
There's so much injustice to what is going on at the moment. Innocent people being bullied, intimidated and sent to points of pretty much no return. So many people I look up to have been made into shells of what and who they were. I know the real versions of themselves are still in there, but everything that has happened has pretty suppressed the people they were. Sometimes they shine through, and it feels like in that moment, everything will be fine, and then another thing happens and it's back to square one.
It feels like I shouldn't feel any way about this, like I don't deserve to feel any way about this because this particular thing isn't happening directly to me, but really, it affects us all in some way, makes us all feel something that makes us just want it all to be over with. We all want to be happy, normal, and who we were again in some way.
On another note, health-wise, I feel like in shattered, physically, emotionally, whichever. I can't cope with the new changes. The fact that I'm weak health-wise takes its tole on how I feel as a person right now. A shadow of myself because nothing feels the same now. Things have changed and I don't think it's going to be easy to go back to how it was before. Things have deteriorated and I've realised now, I'm not just talking about health-wise, am I?
What bothers me quite a lot recently is how rocky things have been since I admitted to myself that maybe that friendship I've fought for from the start is maybe just a fraction of itself now. It's not how it was, it's no where near, and maybe that's my own fault, maybe it's yours, maybe its because of both of us, but I can't deny that we're a fraction of what we were before. I'll try to ignore it, but we both know it's not going to happen. Something needs to change, I just don't know what.
I really don't know what else to say. As I type one thing, something else springs to mind and I can't just write this forever, so I'll end here.
If you read to the end, thanks a lot and I appreciate it, unless you were being nosey, in which case, shame on you.
I know almost every person is going through their own stuff, and this is just a different version of the same old story, but as I said at the beginning, this isn't for you, this is for me, and if you want to judge, go judge somewhere else.
Alie x
Things aren't easy. They never are, but when a person makes it their full out goal to make your or your family or your friends lives a living hell, you have to question humanity just a little bit. People are evil, they always have and always will be, but when you finally experience that for yourself, you really realise the true extent of that, and it's not an easy thing to realise.
Recently, everything has been piling up, and in all honesty, I can't make sense of any of it now. Before, I thought holding things in would be a good idea. 'Don't bother anyone with it all' I told myself, and now I'm getting flack from everywhere. People asking me why I never said about it, people wondering why I went on pretending everything was fine. The truth is, I didn't want to bother anyone. People have way bigger problems, and they still do, so I think i'll just go on in this blog, get it out, and move on as much as is possible, this way, no one has to be burdened with it, except future me.
There's so much injustice to what is going on at the moment. Innocent people being bullied, intimidated and sent to points of pretty much no return. So many people I look up to have been made into shells of what and who they were. I know the real versions of themselves are still in there, but everything that has happened has pretty suppressed the people they were. Sometimes they shine through, and it feels like in that moment, everything will be fine, and then another thing happens and it's back to square one.
It feels like I shouldn't feel any way about this, like I don't deserve to feel any way about this because this particular thing isn't happening directly to me, but really, it affects us all in some way, makes us all feel something that makes us just want it all to be over with. We all want to be happy, normal, and who we were again in some way.
On another note, health-wise, I feel like in shattered, physically, emotionally, whichever. I can't cope with the new changes. The fact that I'm weak health-wise takes its tole on how I feel as a person right now. A shadow of myself because nothing feels the same now. Things have changed and I don't think it's going to be easy to go back to how it was before. Things have deteriorated and I've realised now, I'm not just talking about health-wise, am I?
What bothers me quite a lot recently is how rocky things have been since I admitted to myself that maybe that friendship I've fought for from the start is maybe just a fraction of itself now. It's not how it was, it's no where near, and maybe that's my own fault, maybe it's yours, maybe its because of both of us, but I can't deny that we're a fraction of what we were before. I'll try to ignore it, but we both know it's not going to happen. Something needs to change, I just don't know what.
I really don't know what else to say. As I type one thing, something else springs to mind and I can't just write this forever, so I'll end here.
If you read to the end, thanks a lot and I appreciate it, unless you were being nosey, in which case, shame on you.
I know almost every person is going through their own stuff, and this is just a different version of the same old story, but as I said at the beginning, this isn't for you, this is for me, and if you want to judge, go judge somewhere else.
Alie x
Wednesday 10 October 2012
Room 94 pt 2 - London!
So it's taken me a while to get this up (wehey ;))..
Room 94 in london was one of the best days of my life, I think that and Manc were probably a joint match in greatness.
So London was quite similar to manc, obviously, but in some ways, it was even better.
When we got to the venue, I dragged my friend to the front in hopes that we'd get as close as we could, which ended up being awesome cause we got second row. First up were Bentley Park, I actually really liked their music, although I expected not to, so they were awesome and were a good act to get the crowd ready for the rest of the supports.
Burn so Bright, The Famous Class, and Disclosure were absolutely awesome and, possibly played even better than they did in manchester, and i even caught a few things!
Finally, it was time for Room 94 to grace the stage. They were energetic and fun and made us laugh with their banter. Kieran's vocals were immaculate, as usual, and the guys played an incredible set.
I can't say much more than I did about Manchester (http://heyitsalie.blogspot.co.uk/2012/09/room-94-pt-1-manchester.html) it is much more explained over there. I said that I'd post some pictures and write a little bit, so I have.. :) Thanks! Alie. x
Room 94 in london was one of the best days of my life, I think that and Manc were probably a joint match in greatness.
So London was quite similar to manc, obviously, but in some ways, it was even better.
When we got to the venue, I dragged my friend to the front in hopes that we'd get as close as we could, which ended up being awesome cause we got second row. First up were Bentley Park, I actually really liked their music, although I expected not to, so they were awesome and were a good act to get the crowd ready for the rest of the supports.
Burn so Bright, The Famous Class, and Disclosure were absolutely awesome and, possibly played even better than they did in manchester, and i even caught a few things!
Finally, it was time for Room 94 to grace the stage. They were energetic and fun and made us laugh with their banter. Kieran's vocals were immaculate, as usual, and the guys played an incredible set.
I can't say much more than I did about Manchester (http://heyitsalie.blogspot.co.uk/2012/09/room-94-pt-1-manchester.html) it is much more explained over there. I said that I'd post some pictures and write a little bit, so I have.. :) Thanks! Alie. x
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| Tiff (Disclosure) silhouette |
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| Me goofing |
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| Beautiful Kieran (I love this picture, so proud of it) |
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| Me & Lovely (SlenderKit) Kit from Manc, cause sadly, couldn't get a picture in London :( |
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| Me & the beautiful Robbie Coles (who's wearing the bracelet I made him, aw <3) |
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| Kieran, Kit & Robbie, staging it up. |
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| My little brother & Tiff from Disclosure |
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| Me & the most awesome Sean Lemon! |
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| Me & my lovely friend Charlotte, |
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| My beautiful Kieran |
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| Kieran <3 |
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| The lovely Kieran with Mr Robbie Coles to the right |
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| Stoo (The Famous Class) |
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| Tiff, Disclosure |
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| Lovely Kieran singing Ignorance is bliss |
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| Kieran singing Ignorance is Bliss |
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| Me & the lovely Robbie In manchester (Blurry, sorry) |
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| Millie, Burn so Bright |
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| Kieran <3 |
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| Kieran Silhouette |
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| Burn so Bright |
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| Me and the lovely Dean Lemon, Laughing after some banter :3 |
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| Stoo (TFC) |
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| Sean & Kieran Lemon, Kit Tanton in the background |
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| Well, hey there Kieran! |
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| Me & Kieran goofing in Manc |
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| Shane & Millie, Burn so Bright |
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| Me & my lovely Kieran after the show in london, aw <3
So, to wrap up an amazing experience in a sentence or two, I had an amazing time at both gigs, had a right laugh with some amazing people, and experienced yet another "best day of my life"
Thanks!
Alie! x
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